love my girlfriend
i really love my friends

but the way i've been living lately is shitty
and by that i mean what i've been putting in my body



lets just say it involves a $100 dollar bill
and my right nostril

(no not coke)



but i'm done with all that bad shit
with the exception of cigarettes
=]

Well, i'm proud to say i have a girlfriend

that's that

mood: good

I have no idea what i want right now
my minds all over the place

everyones going in different places
and i don't know who i wanna follow

or if i wanna follow anyone for that matter

i hate to make all these entries sound as if i'm depressed

don't worry, i'm not

i'm fine, i'm just stressed thats all

mood: stressed

lately, i've been feelin kinda lazy about things
i need to get back on track

i need to start focusing in school more, like i was doing
maybe i'm losing balance of friends and school
i can't let that happen
i don't wanna fuck up my grades

i'm pretty sure i've already fucked up though
if i do good enough i think i can pass

a C average sounds good
my parents would still be proud
just no F's

i'm also gonna work extra hard on getting a cell phone again
i feel left out without one
like something is always happening without me.

on the bright side
my parents don't have contact with me when i'm up to no good

mood: pessimistic

right now, i like someone
but i don't think it's going anywhere

no big deal

i love my friends
i love my family
i hate my brother


fuck that
gimme waffles


this 4 day weekend should be tight
gonna be hangin out with some old friends, hopefully

i don't think the 60 beers, 3 people thing is gonna happen now though
most likely christmas break
hopefully
sounds fun

i need a phone
so i can call people........

i've been making new friends here and there
nuff said



i've been listening to a variety of shit lately also

one minute it's D.R.I. and Crucial Unit
to Bright Eyes and Pelican


it's making my head hurt
buy me this and i'll love you

http://www.bluecollardistro.com/pelican/product_info.php?products_id=1326&cPath=378_382&store=0

that i really want change in my life


i don't know what

but i am yearning for a difference in my life/lifestyle/mind





thats all

things have just been okay
nothing greats happening
but nothing bads happening

everythings just hella chill
i love all of my friends
especially the ones that i've been seeing a lot of lately


in other news
i got a haircut, i love the new skittles, i watched The Reaping, and i'm about to get a new hat
or maybe a shirt
haven't decided yet
=]

Maybe I'll do it

if I do, it better have some kind of positive effect on my life
if it doesn't, no big deal, at least i can say i tried

=\

This past week has really sucked for me
internally at least

I may be acting fine on the outside, but thats just a fake smile, along with fake laughs and fake joy
I hope you're all enjoying it
cause I'm not.

I need a pick me up
not coffee, not candy
but something that'll really PICK ME UP
out of the gutter

I need her (Cliche')

hahaha
yeah i know it wasn't really friday the 13th

but it might as well been
i hungout with cool ass people all that day too
it was tight
we hungout at camerons house and whatnot
and there were cops everywhere!

apparently someone got shot

but anyways, some of us acquired some 40oz. beers (about 5) and had a good ass time at taylors house
you don't even knowwww
it was spectacular
we went up in the mountains and found this bench overlooking contra loma lake, simply beautiful (and the beers helped too)
it went like this
chill, toast, chug, repeat this about 5 times and you end up with the ass end of an almost empty bottle, with the exception of foam
yuck!

but yeah other than that beautiful night this weekend was pretty laid back
no arguing
no hate
just love, fun, and friends

this needs to happen more often

so i talked to her for an hour and a half on the phone
just got off about 10 minutes ago
i spoke my mind, and i don't know if i should have
i mean, i guess it was right to do
but i don't know if things are gonna be weird now
i hope not

i told her that she made me wanna stay single for a long time
and that she killed it for me
that she literally made me never wanna be in another relationship
at least for a few years


that about sums up my night.

today was boring.
i hugged catherine a billion times.
i stole powerade outta the powerade machine.
fought with my mom.

the end.

This weekend was tight as fuck

I stayed the night at Camerons, and in the morning on saturday we went to Karalees house
and we brought her an ice cream cake!

it was delicious, and it made everyones mouths blue
haha
then we hella walked to La Costa and i had a monster fat ass burrito
and Karalee had 4 tacos
then i found a skateboard on the way to the bus stop!

when we got to camerons saturday evening, all of camerons family was drunk!
Katina, his dad, and his mom was too

hella late at night we all went teepeeing
and we owned the shit outta this house!

today was alright
i hungout with some cool people at lunch and i got a free powerade out of the machin

when i went home i went to logan(crickets) house

and we went to the mall and hungout for a few hours
he almost beat House of the Dead
but he died on the last boss


i have to go back to the dentist again tomorrow for 2 more fillings

i'm not all that scared this time
i just don't wanna go cause it's a waste of time

oh well
this weekend should be nice, fun, and sober
=]

Soooooo

today school was pretty lame as always
some people mad me smile i guess

i hung out with Ethan and Logan (Cricket to most) after school at the mall

it went like this:
we hungout in zumies for a while
we saw Sara and Alyson and they followed us around for a little bit
then we ate at Orange Julius
and then Ethan bought that game skate for xbox 360
after that we ate at sabarros and then left the mall on our way to hangout at turner school

then Logan went home and me and Ethan went to my house and sat on my computer until his mom came.


I hope tomorrows better

during school that is

so today i went to the dentist
it was horrid
i sat there for like 30 minutes
then when they called me in i sat for 30 more minutes in the weird chairs have to operate on
then they numbed my mouth, gave me my filling, and sent me on my way


oh yeah
and i guess i have to get 2, maybe 3 root canals


i'm gonna die
i swear i hate dentists.

other than that undesired trip today was pretty boring
watched talladega nights
it was ok.

October 1, 2007 (first entry)



ok, so this is my first enrty
i made an account on here cause I thought that it would be a good way to vent my problems and whatnot.



so...
today I came home sick from school
I have a really bad toothache.
my mom called the dentist and now I have an appointment tomorrow at 9:00

I'm afraid of the dentist
BIG TIME

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